School Updates

The reason I did not post earlier is because I needed to calm myself down first and reiterate over and over (the wrong sentence / word structure is intentional) that a hiccup is good. It helps keep things in focus. It makes us work harder. Stop us from being too bigheaded.

Sebenarnya, it was not at all bad. It was in fact pretty darn good. But since my expectation is always so high when it comes to Aliah, a slight bump had me frustrated. 12As and 1B, and no 5 in class. In fact, no 5 in the whole standard.

Pretty good kan?

Patut sujud syukur and praise Allah Alhamdulillah kan?

But yeah like I said, I had high expectations. So the syukur only came a bit later when I stopped myself from being such a kiasu mommy.

And I belatedly remembered to give praise to Aliah for a job well done. Which was followed by a "you've got a lot of work ahead of you little missy" speech soon after. What to do, once a kiasu mommy..

Kakak, if and when you read this much much later in life - do know the only reason Mommy gets dissappointed is because I know what you are capable of. And seeing you sell yourself short and not getting that target makes me slightly frustrated. Not at you though, because I know you have tried your best. And that is what matters most. The fact that you tried your very best. Mommy loves you no matter what.

[nasib baik J takde exam last sem - they forgo it as they didn't want the kids to be too hooked up on As and forget that learning is all about having fun]

WW :: Makan!

I am not rajin enough to cook for Amir daily, hence the stocking up method.

Some of the things that are in there includes;
- chicken porridge with carrots and potatoes
- broccoli and peas (to be eaten with cheese)
- homemade pasta sauce
- apple and plum sauce (to be eaten with oats)
- baby ambrosia ready made stuff (I normally get the fish variety)
- and of course, EBM stock (dwindling! though)

Reflection

Every day when I send J to school, or even when I pick her up I will be greeted by this sweet 5 year old who will without fail ask me who I was sending / picking up.

I would normally just respond to her as I usually do when it comes to questions from these preschoolers.

Early this week, I was told by one of the teachers that the said 5 year old has just lost her mother. *gasp* Innalillahiwainnailahirajiuun.. She is now staying with her aunt (saya takde Mama, tapi saya ada Mommy).

But what amazes me is that although she knows her mother is gone, she does not throw a tantrum. She maintains her sweet demeanour. She still greets me as se usually does. And when asked by her teacher if she wanted to salam me, she quickly did so. I couldn't help but hug her and give her a kiss. Subhanallah.. I was the one with tears in my eyes.

And I can't help but wonder, if anything were to happen to me how would the children fare. Who will be staying with them?

*tiba - tiba byk yg perlu difikirkan*

Revelation

I just realised that I should just post whatever I drafted immediately instead of keeping it for a later review.

This came about because I have tons of draft posts that I really don't know how to continue from where I left off.

And the longer it sits there, the less I remember what to say.

(Getting old aren't we.. *sigh*)

[hitting the post button right now]

WW :: YinYang