Week 38

Penat.

Tired.

Reflux.

Nerve Pain.

Back Ache.

You name it. It's all there.

But, I am grateful Baby is still happy in the tummy.

And I am happy that my checklist are being ticked and getting done. The only nagging chore left is spring cleaning the girls' room. *sigh*

Update on the c-sect date; we don't have one. Haha! As in, 2/2 has been postponed. And as of now, new date has not been selected. 

Waiting for them to get in touch with Doc Kham, and get back to me. So yeah. Waiting game. It's ok. There's a reason for things to happen this way. 

Biiznillah, all will be well.

Weaning

After he turned 2 and seeing that his baby brother will be out soon, the thought of weaning him has been going through my mind. In all honesty, I really do not know how to go about doing it. In one hand, it was our bonding moment.. a ritual if you may. The only time of the day where I felt really important and connected to him. On the other, he is 2 and I have completed my obligation to give him what was best for him (plus, I really did not want to encourage early contraction and stuff like that)

In a way, the transition has been made.. With the feeding being at night only ever since being pregnant. Only sometimes would he ask during the day and since he always asks so nicely, I can never say no. :P (of course after that, I would be so lembek for that whole day)

And so, each night after he turned 2, I told him that he's a big boy now and don't need his nen anymore and he can just go to sleep with me instead. Everytime, he would stop sucking and look at me as if to say "really?" and stare at me a bit before continuing as though he does not think my idea is a good one. Haha!

But for a week now, he has been on a routine where he says good night to everyone and once ready will tuck himself in the duvet and "try" to sleep by himself, without the nen. And amazingly enough, he's done it. Albeit takes longer. And needs a whole lot of twist and turn. And the occasional tepuk bum in a rhythm. But he's done it. No crying, no tantrums whatsoever. Subhanallah.. MasyaAllah I am so impressed!

And now I feel bereft. 

WW :: Thank You Enche Suami

Loving it!

Belated Post :: That Friday

It all happened one Friday right before Eid Adha. I was late to pick her up. And when I wanted to start the car, it wouldn't. Boleh? Padahal semalam ni elok je bawak. (turns out battery died) Anyway, called the school to see if she could get a ride back with the teacher she goes back with sometimes but was told that the teacher has already left. So what does a Mommy do in times of emergency? She SOSes her Mama! :)

About 10 minutes later, Mama called back to see if I have gotten a call from her teacher. Apparently, within that time frame she had gotten herself in a little accident. It was pretty bad that teacher decided to bring her straight to the clinic. Waited for Mama to pick me up, and we met up with her and her teacher in the clinic. 

Turns out she was being her usual Tigger self, jumping and running around, had a fall and a really bad cut on her chin. As it didn't stop bleeding, her teacher decided to get it checked out at the clinic. Luckily clinic was still opened. It being Friday and all (a lot of shops close during Friday prayers here in Bangi-land)

I didn't want to interrupt the procedure, so she didn't know I was there till after her stitches were done. It took a while too as it was in a weird angle and what with the bleeding that just wouldn't stop. Saw that it was quite deep too.

Amazingly enough, she was really calm through out the process. Doc was quite impressed with her too. Praised her for being really brave. When asked later, she was more afraid of getting a scolding from me than worry about the pain. Boleh? Haiyoh.. Nampak sangat Mommy garang nih!

And yes, dressing and cleaning was done daily by this blood squirmish Mommy. Actually, initially the doc did only 1 stitch sbb tak nak too much scarring. But it turns out she needed 2 more stitches as when I was doing the dressing the following day it still has not stopped bleeding. So, bawak la balik pegi klinik to get the additional stitches. Nasib la it is really underneath her chin so it is not visible from the front unless you look for it. And nasib la jugak medical is covered by Hub's company. The bill itself pensan jugak tengok. Haha. 

Maka, special la sikit gambar raya haji tahun ini.. :)

WW :: Amir at 25 months

OK la, not so much wordless but in short para form. Can kan?

Without needing to be taught, he has now caught on to the superhero bug. This is the latest of the boys will be boys wiring I so believe that is ingrained in him. Started of with trains and cars, and the assortment of trucks, buses etc, and then angry bird. The only thing he hasn't started to be obsessed with is ultraman. :) But even that, I believe if he started watching it confirm sangkut jugak.

Loves to read his cars magazines before going to sleep. To the point, lights cannot be switched off before he is done. Sometimes, one car or the other gets to go to sleep with him. 

Has quite the temper. Can hold his own with Kak Jannah's temperament too. Haha. Baru lah betul buku temu ruas kan.

Eats and eats and eats. Fruits are his ultimate favourite. And nasi. And lasagna. And more fruits. Tapi berat tak naik-naik jugak. He still is hovering at that 9ish kg weight.

note :: need to blog about his 2nd birthday soon!

Phone-less

I have been that for 10 days now (but who's counting :P)

Observations for being phone-less;

1. I am not as concerned about the missed calls as I am about the missed Whatsapp messages. Goes to show,the phone has become a social attachment rather than a necessity.
2. I know now how I take having a camera ready as a handy thing forgranted. Missed out on a couple of moments due to the "ah crap, can't take a picture of this now"
3. I have started to pick up where I left off books (as in physical books) that have been abandoned halfway previously. (This one could also be mainly due to the fact that I am trying to not get Amir attached to gadgets so much that I have to hide the mini / ipad from him, thus I can't read my ebooks in front of him)
4. I zikir / recite ayats more now as a result of not having the phone with me while bfeeding Amir (this I believe is a MAJOR improvement!)
5. I have started blogging again! Enough said :)

Side note :: phone is apparently unsalvageable *sigh* 

Aliah is 9!

*sigh*

Time sure does fly.. (That has been the theme lately isn't it)

My eldest has grown so much. I am always at awe over her maturity. Her sense of calmness. Her soft spoken demeanor (doesn't mean she doesn't have a temper though) 

Many have said she has grown up to look like me. But I have to be quick to point out, not my temperament though ;)

Her loving care and patience towards her younger brother and sister is something even I do not have at times. How I don't have to tell her to do things. How I can rely on her makes me so proud. I have been blessed Alhamdulillah. Thankful for the opportunity to be her Mommy. She has taught me a lot.

While we were prepping for sleep, I pointed out to her that as it is now she needs to do her complete solat. You could see it in her face, how ecstatic she was that she now is older but at the same time how burdened she feels of that responsibility growing up. (because I was going on and on about how she's a big girl now and her solat is one of the things she needs to be responsible for)

Dear Kakak, Mommy knows I do not need to watch over you all the time as you've proven that you are quite capable of taking care of yourself. But do know that I am always here for you, to listen and to give you guidance when you need me to. All Mommy wants is for you to grow as a true Muslimah, be a good Khalif and strive to do the best in whatever it is you want to pursue. Love you with all my heart!

Aliah's New Look

Can you see it? Yup, she is wearing retainers now. Went to the dentist during the school hols for a different problem and was alerted to a more pressing issue of her front teeth. Her top two teeth has always been big and crooked. Problem is now it has "attacked" the bottom two and caused it to loosen. If it were not permanent teeth, it is ok. But since all her front teeth are already permanent teeth, more attacks might cause her to lose the bottom two teeth if not prevented. 

So, the dentist suggested we put on a preventive retainers to help the top two teeth align and stop harassing the bottom two. Haha. 

On the day of the molding, someone freaked out and had a tough time with the molding session. *sigh* Annnd as a result, when the retainers were done it didn't fit in properly. Luckily the dentist could fix the problem and after menggodek sana sini for a while, it finally fit.

Observations :: 

She's only been wearing it for 4 days, and yet seems like a pro already fixing it in by herself. (Day 1 was horrendous btw, what with Mommy lack her usual patience lately)

The teeth seems to be aligning itself at quite a fast rate if you ask me. I can already see some improvements. At this rate, I don't think she'll need to wear them for long. (Doc said anything between 1-2 years)

Somehow, her sleep teeth grinding has stopped too since she started wearing the retainers. That one I don't know if it is a coincidence or not. 

New School Year

I have two schooling kids this year! After a week, still need some getting used to not to panic at midday coz I haven't picked J up yet. Haha. Nampak sangat selalu lambat pick her up dulu. (oh, suddenly remembered a story to tell about the Friday I was late to pick her up that lead her to need 3 stitches underneath her chin - note to self : please remember to blog about it)

First day of school went of without a hitch. Dropped them of at 8. Took some obligatory pictures in class and left. I was slightly apprehensive about J, knowing how she is - worrying that she will want things done her way the whole time but apparently she adapted well. Made new friends on the first day and has not looked back since. 

She was put into Ibnu Qayyim, Kakak's class back then and has Teacher Gee too as her class teacher. I worry, because that is what a Mommy does. But I believe she will be fine. Need to remind her to chill and have fun while learning though. ;)

And I can't believe Kakak is already in Year 3! Oh man... I feel old! Hahaha.. They decided to jumble the kids around this year and thus she is not in the same class with her friends from last year. Even her bff is in another class now. I think it had something to do with the fact that her class performed so well last year, that they left a really big gap with the other 2 classes. Case in point, all the top 3 students from last year was her classmates and this year they were all put in 3 different classes. 

I think this move will do her good too. Make new friends. Keep her out of her comfort zone. See how far she can push herself without looking over her shoulder all the time to see (and compete) with her bff.

Whatever it may be, I do hope my two girls will enjoy going to school, have fun while at the same time gain knowledge. And of course for me to be less kiasu. :)

Tehehe

Dear Hubs,

Kindly take note of the list of things I would like to eat before my confinement.

1. Nasi Lemak Mak Wanjor
2. Berjaya Wantan Mee
3. Your super scrumptious colek
4. Durian crepe
5. All I could eat ice cream, chocolates and froyos

Please make this wishlist a reality, thank you.

Your loving wife. :)

35 Weeks!

That is how far along I am already.. 

Hmmm... And how do we pack 35 weeks of info..?

It has been one heck of a ride that is for sure. Had my suspicions of being pregnant while we were still in the States, but couldn't do the test then coz a kit was sooooo expensive there. Came back, had jetlag and followed immediately by the usual first trimester symptoms - nausea, lethargic, all round can't get up. This was at par with Aliah's time. 

It was the most trying first trimester, what with having to do all the Mommy duties too. Plus I was (and still is) breastfeeding Amir. But Alhamdulillah, it has worked out. Amir from being so clingy and wants Mommy all the time refused me during the first trimester. So managed to put bfeeding time to at night only. And that is how it is till now. 

The 2 kakaks were excited about the prospect. One wanted a boy, and the other a girl. Haha! Guess who wanted which?

Fasting was a no go too. So I basically didn't fast at all this Ramadhan. Not a single day. I am still looking into all the relevant info of whether I would have to ganti, or bayar fidyah, or both. I am leaning towards the fidyah one btw - based on the fact that it is me who was at risk not the baby.

Talking about which, this little tyke is one healthy baby! He (ah yes, let's just let the cat out of the bag shall we) has always been ahead of his weekly development schedule since day 1. Currently at 35 weeks, he's already 3kgs! His siblings were already out by this weight! Definitely going to be the biggest baby out of the 4. 

And I have gained the most weight so far too. 14 kgs in total! I so feel like a whale now. The aches and pains are more too this time. Age I think. Haha. Thank goodness this is the last pregnancy. I don't think I am up for this again. 

C-sect has been scheduled and re-scheduled. It was supposed to be on the 30 Jan but we have pushed it back to 2 Feb because Doc Kham isn't around and I want her. Haha. Hopefully baby will stay happy in the tummy till then. 

Current mode :: panicky because there is still so much to do!! :P