Gugur Jantung

I still owe a post on the PD picnic during the school hols. But sungguh tiada mood disitu. I do however want to story about one incident that happened during the picnic. And it has something to do with the cheeky girl in the pic.

You see, unlike her sister and her cousins, she refused to touch the ocean. At all. She didn't even want to change to her swimsuit. She was content to playing with the sand by the beach. Until she got cranky. And insist to go home. Tsk.

After lunch, all the kids went for another dip. So I was actually calling them back as it was panas yang amat at that point. (It was about 3pm after all) When I came back to our spot, I looked around for Jannah and couldn't see her. Anik was not around too, so at first I thought she was with Anik. But Anik came back from the toilet - ALONE - and then all hell broke lose and everyone started panicking as Jannah was not accounted for and was nowhere to be found! 

We searched EVERYWHERE within the 100m radius, the toilet, the bath area, the shops. And she was still nowhere to be seen. It was in all honesty the longest 10 minutes of my life.

At the point where I was already hyperventilating of all the horrible horrible things that could have happened (na'uzubillah), she came within view (with her cheeky smile I might add), holding hands with her Tok. Subhanallah. Alhamdulillah. No words could have described my feelings.

You know where her Tok found her? About 500m away from where we were. 500m! According to her Tok, she was happily enjoying her little walk by the beach, oblivious to her surroundings. It was a stroke of luck(?), God's will, I would say that Tok was coming back from solat at the surau in exactly the direction Jannah was heading. 

It could have been so easy for anyone who was so inclined to just take her. She was after all holding on to her iPod then. And also had her gold anklet with her. I honestly feel faint every time I think about it.

Mama reminded me to do my sujud syukur, which I did. And I am. Syukur. Blessed. To feel for even 10 minutes how upside down and horrible the world could have been. That is something I hope I never have to feel ever again.

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Aliah turns 6!

My baby is a big girl already! She's 6. I feel old.. Haha!

She continues to amaze me daily with her intelligence, compassion, understanding and emotions.

She lives up to the "eldest tag" with such grace.

We had one of our chats a couple of days ago, and I told her that when she turns 6, she would need to start to do her solat dilligently. And it is her choice which solat she wants to start with. After some thought she choose Maghrib. We'll see if she remembers today.

(My way of instilling solat might not be the best but is what I think would be the best way for my kids. I want her to start doing 1 solat dilligently for each year and add 1 more for every birthday till by the time she turns 10, she would need to complete all her solat)

My dearest Aliah, may you grow up to be a good Muslimah. Do know that Mommy and Papa loves you very much!

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Sarah Nur Aqilah

would have been born today, if things had turned out differently.

I miss her very much..

Back to School

Sent her. She found her friends. Not even a backward glance to Mommy and Papa. :)

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Congratulations

To my dearest friend;

Here's to the start of a wonderful journey. Enjoy every minute of it. There will be downs but focus on the ups.

I will still be here for you no matter.

Love you to bits, xoxo

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